chapters 8 -14
Chapter Eight
Mr. Bennet set off early the next morning to return to Longbourn. He left with a great deal of despondency, for at Mr. Darcy's particular request, he had not been informed that help was being received from another quarter. He feared that the chance of locating Lydia was growing slimmer with each passing hour. His hope had dimmed, and it was evident in the way he wore his disappointment. Both his wit and wisdom seemed to have deserted him. He appeared to have aged several years in mere days; he walked more slowly, and carried himself with the stooped posture of an old man. He said his farewells with a heavy heart and did not look back as the carriage pulled away. Elizabeth and her aunt and uncle held out hope that Mr. Darcy's knowledge might prove the key to finding Wickham, but believed that by abiding in his request to keep his assistance a secret, they were avoiding giving Mr. Bennet any false hope.
The ladies of the household then settled in the sitting room, where the windows had been opened, to enjoy the surprisingly fresh air in the City this morning. Despite all her sorrows over Lydia, Mrs. Gardiner smiled to no one in particular, remembering with some enjoyment all that Elizabeth had made known to her last night. She reconfirmed in her mind the conclusions that she had previously reached, and felt certain that she was not mistaken. She checked her desire to express joy for either of her nieces, as it was quite a premature notion, but she had no little amount of confidence that she would be able to do just that before many more weeks could pass. She then elected to keep these facts to herself; her husband need be informed of the particulars only when something more tangible occurred.
Elizabeth sat across the table working on a complicated piece of stitchery. She glanced up every few minutes and wondered at the amused look that was spread upon her aunt's face. She said not a word about the events they had discussed in such detail last night. Unfortunately, she was forced to remove more than one stitch, as her mind persisted in straying from her work. This did not go unnoticed by Mrs. Gardiner, who hoped that whatever thoughts were causing her niece's distraction was pleasant indeed. Mr. Darcy had not spent his morning entertaining even the thought of idleness. He had left the house and met with his banker before many men in the City had even met with their breakfast. Returning to Mrs. Younge's residence, he quickly bargained down her demands as far as he could, then paid her half the sum they agreed upon. Darcy did not for a moment put any credence in her information; she would only receive the other half when he had confirmed that her story was true. He wasted no time in proceeding to the address that he had paid so dearly for.
Miss Lydia Bennet, on the other hand, was not occupying herself usefully this morning. She had not even made an effort to dress; she sat at the table in her dressing gown, before the scattered remnants of her breakfast. She looked with annoyance to Wickham, who was again writing his correspondence, anxious to finish it for the morning post. Lydia sighed dramatically. She took up a spoon and began to tap out a favourite jig against her teacup. Wickham stopped his writing and scowled at her; Lydia returned it with a grand smile, for she had gained the attention she sought.
"My love, can you amuse yourself in a more quiet way?" Wickham inquired. Lydia ceased her tapping. "Are we to go out today? You promised we would. And a gentleman always keeps his promises. Oh, I do so want to begin shopping for my wedding." "Then so we shall. I will finish my correspondence so that you and I may spend the afternoon in pursuit of the perfect bridal gown." Wickham then turned back to his writing with no further comment. Since they would not be going out until the afternoon, Lydia could find no reason to bother with getting dressed, and instead took up a spot at the window to pass the time. Back in the picturesque countryside of Hertfordshire, Jane had partaken of a hasty breakfast. She expected to see Mr. Bingley quite early this morning; he had offered to escort her, Kitty and Mary into Meryton so that Jane could oversee some arrangements for the household in lieu of her mother, who was still indisposed. This would be the fourth day in a row that Mr. Bingley had called upon her. As cautious as she preferred to be, she was beginning to feel some confidence in his regard. The sound of a horse brought her attention to the window and her heart quickened at the sight of the very man she had been thinking of. Jane hurried to the door and greeted him with her customary reserved smile, then brought him inside to take a cup of tea before they set out for Meryton. As they sat in the parlor waiting for Kitty and Mary, she noticed that he did not seem to wear his normal cheerful disposition, but had an air of anxious unease. This was enough to set Jane off on a series of doubts about Mr. Bingley's newfound feelings for her. It put her out of sorts, and although she did her best not to display it, her normally serene appearance was altered, and her mood began to take on a bit of a nervous edge. With these undercurrents present, the four set out on their walk into Meryton. Caroline Bingley and Mrs. Hurst had set aside this morning to pay a visit to Georgiana Darcy. She was such a sweet girl, and Caroline in particular liked to consider herself an excellent example to dear Georgiana of just what a polished young lady ought to be. Mr. Bingley's sisters had yet to receive any correspondence from their brother, and hardly expected it; he was known to be very negligent in such tasks. Therefore, they hoped to gain some information from Georgiana regarding Charles' - and Mr. Darcy's - current visit to Netherfield.
Their speculation had not abated, but rather swelled, on this subject. As the women alighted from their carriage and ascended the steps of the Darcy family's magnificent townhouse, Caroline Bingley could not help but wonder yet again at what it would be to call it her home. The morning post in Gracechurch Street brought another letter from Jane. Elizabeth read it to her aunt while they drank a cup of late morning tea. It held no news of any real significance, but both women expressed their approval upon learning that Mr. Bingley had again called upon Jane and was expected back tomorrow, which would have already passed! Elizabeth wondered aloud about Lydia and hoped that Mr. Darcy would have some success today, with which her aunt concurred.
Darcy now strode through a narrow cobblestoned alley that teemed with all manner of humanity and beasts. Smells such as he had never encountered before now introduced themselves to his awareness, for the confined area was strewn with rotting produce, horse droppings, and an uncountable number of persons who seemed never to have bathed in their lives. A pack of barefooted, runny-nosed children were chasing a cart drawn by a horse whose weeping sores were being attacked with some enthusiasm by swarms of flies. A pair of dogs broke into a fight directly in his path, only to be stopped by a swift kick from a stout woman who had stepped from a doorway. She gave Darcy a toothless smile and a wobbling curtsy. Two men, only now weaving their way home from a night of merrymaking, jostled past him. Darcy heard a vague "Sorry, Guv!" under the breath of one of them. Then suddenly from an upper window came a bucketful of dirty water, splashing the drunken men and initiating all manner of foul language directed skyward. Darcy filed away a few choice phrases that he had not heard before.
Up in her room, Lydia had long since lost interest in the limited view. She was considering if she should choose a gown with short sleeves, as it was summer after all, or if she should perhaps opt for the new fashion of longer sleeves. She decided that, since she had such nice arms, short sleeves would be best. As she looked to Wickham to observe him shaving, she missed seeing a man of her acquaintance as he stepped into the building. A knock upon the door alerted those within that lunch had come and Lydia flung open the door, as she was famished. To her utter disbelief, there stood Mr. Darcy. And he most definitely did not bring luncheon. Darcy was greeted by a most deplorable sight; there stood Miss Lydia Bennet, her hair in disarray, wearing no more than a dressing gown with much of her breakfast upon it. Behind her, he glimpsed a very unkempt apartment, then a half-shaven Wickham, who wore the look of a man who had just lost a hundred-pound wager. Darcy tactfully diverted his eyes from the unmade bed.
"Madam, since we last met, your situation has changed. Would you be so good as to tell me how I should address you? Is it still Miss Lydia Bennet, or may I now call you Mrs. Wickham?" Darcy said this with no attempt at kindness, and only the barest intent of civility. Lydia was still somewhat shocked and did not respond; Wickham stepped forward to stand beside her. "Darcy, what are you doing here?" He gave Wickham a hard, cold look. "I am here on behalf of Miss Bennet's family, who have been sick with grief and searching frantically for her since she disappeared from Brighton." He paused for only a moment. "But my question has not been answered. How shall I address you, Madam?"
Lydia had no wish to answer until she had regained some measure of her senses. She noticed the landlord standing behind him and found enough presence of mind to say, "Well, and what of you? Don't just stand there. Where is my lunch? I am starving!"
Mr. Bingley's sisters had just sat down to luncheon with Georgiana Darcy. Caroline decided to attempt some general inquires that might satisfy her specific curiosities. "Georgiana dear, how have you been coping? Have you been keeping busy with your music and your reading?" She replied that she had, whereupon Miss Bingley continued, "And what have you heard from your brother? No doubt he is a much more considerate correspondent than mine!" The Bingley sisters exchanged a knowing smile. Georgiana looked confused. "Miss Bingley, my brother has not had the need to write to me, for he has been in town these three days past." A look of disbelief passed between the sisters. "Georgiana, do I hear you correctly? Mr. Darcy is here? In town?" "Indeed, he has come to oversee business of some urgency." "But he only just went to Netherfield with Charles. Pray, where is my brother?" "I do not know, Miss Bingley." Georgiana was a little frightened now by the turn in Caroline Bingley's attitude. "I must assume he is still at Netherfield." The sisters exchanged a look of some alarm, for they were both thinking the same thought. With Mr. Darcy here and Charles left to his own devices, there is the likelihood that he will get himself into much trouble without proper supervision. As if it were not enough that Caroline had to worry about her brother cavorting around the countryside with the attractive Jane Bennet, she was about to be handed an even more alarming piece of news. Georgiana attempted to continue. "I was so happy that Fitzwilliam came to London unexpectedly. And it was most fortunate, for I was able to make the aquaintance of Miss Bennet. My brother met her by chance and took the opportunity to bring her here. We enjoyed a lovely afternoon yesterday." "Miss Bennet?" Caroline choked. She cleared her throat and said, "To which Miss Bennet do you refer, Georgiana?" "Miss Elizabeth Bennet, of course." Caroline laid her fork aside; she had completely lost her appetite.
Their luncheon was much shorter than any of the party would have expected. When the sisters were safe in their carriage with the door closed behind them, Miss Bingley turned to Mrs. Hurst. "Louisa, what are the chances of Mr. Darcy unexpectedly encountering Miss Elizabeth Bennet in the great city of London?" "I find the likelihood of it quite remote, sister," replied Mrs. Hurst. "As do I sister, as do I," Caroline responded dejectedly.
It was a lovely morning for walking into town, although by all appearances neither Jane nor Bingley seemed to be enjoying it much. Their conversation was lagging, and what little they said was of no consequence. Kitty and Mary had put a discreet distance between themselves and the couple, but could still be seen on the path ahead. Suddenly Mr. Bingley spoke rather loudly into the silence. "Miss Bennet, I must tell you how much I have enjoyed these last few days. I am only sorry that I did not return to Hertfordshire sooner." He glanced sideways at her and saw that she looked down at the path, but with a smile upon her face. This was encouragement enough and he continued, "And may I say that the time I have spent with you has been very special to me. I would be most sad to see it end."
Jane looked up with some dread of where the conversation might now be headed. "Are you planning to leave again, Mr. Bingley?" "Why, no! What I mean is, well, I don't want it to end. I, umm, oh!" He fell quiet again as they continued to make their way towards Meryton. Odd! Very odd indeed. Jane was trying to sort out what in the world might be on Mr. Bingley's mind when he stopped suddenly and turned to face her in the middle of the road.
He swallowed once, then plunged forward. "Miss Bennet, I love you." Almost belatedly, he took her hands and confessed, "I believe I have loved you from the first night we met. At the dance in Meryton. Do you remember?"
It was a silly question, for of course Jane remembered. But he was flustered and nervous. "Yes, Mr. Bingley, I have very fond memories of that night," Jane managed to reply calmly in the middle of what she hoped would turn into a proposal of marriage. "As do I, Miss Bennet." He stood silent again but did not move, clasping her hands in the middle of the rutted road until a cart came upon them and forced them to step to one side. Under the shade of a broad tree, Jane smiled encouragingly up at him, waiting for him to continue.
He was about to speak when he realized he no longer held her hands in his. He took them up again; his nervousness made him feel safer looking down at them. He finally managed to say, "I would not wish to consider spending any more time without you. It is unacceptable to me. I hope it is for you too." With that, Bingley lifted his eyes to hers with open adoration. "Jane, if you will consent to be my wife, you will make me the happiest man in the world. Will you, Jane? Will you marry me?" Her face broke into the most radiant smile; Bingley was sure he had never before seen such beauty on any woman. And her words were more wonderful than any he had ever heard. "Mr. Bingley, you do me the greatest honour. For if I was given but one wish to be granted, it would be to marry you." Bingley brought Jane's hands up and kissed them with much affection. Jane, in turn, placed her hand upon his face, sending him an unmistakable message with her eyes. It was all the permission he required to lean towards Jane and kiss her with a passion that surprised them both. They were interrupted by the lowing of a cow in the pasture close by. "Mr. Bingley, you must be a mind reader, for not only did you ask me the only question I wanted to hear, you kissed me exactly the way I would wish you to."
The rest of their walk into Meryton was much more pleasant; the now-engaged couple strolled, arm in arm and deep in relaxed conversation.
Darcy was frustrated. He was also tired and in need of a bath. All he could wish for was to get home. When at last the carriage stopped, he bounded up the stairs and continued on briskly until he reached his dressing room. He peeled off his clothes and dropped them on the floor, from whence his valet immediately retrieved them and commissioned them away to the laundry. Surrounded now by the warm water of his bath, he allowed himself to relax. His eyes closed but he did not sleep, for his mind was still sorting through all that must yet be done. He needed to speak with Mr. Gardiner as quickly as possible. He thought of sending a note, then decided better of it. He would just call in Gracechurch Street and, if necessary, wait for the gentleman if he were not at home. He had to confess that this was not a plan without merit, for if Mr. Gardiner were out, perhaps he would be able to spend some time with Miss Bennet. He sighed and sunk lower into the tub at the thought of her. He could not help but relive their intimate time alone in his carriage. What might have happened had I held her hand longer? He invented an imaginary scenario that was most gratifying; in it, not only was she no longer wearing her gloves and bonnet, but he was bestowing a multitude of kisses on the exposed skin of her hands and her neck once the offending garments had been tossed aside. Elizabeth was enraptured by his attentions. Of course! But in fact he knew his private desires could never have played out as he dreamed. It would be nothing short of insupportable. Darcy accepted this, which was why he could only let it happen in his mind.
He opened his eyes to stave off a more satisfying idea that began to form as he pictured himself savouring the taste of her soft lips. Damn it man! Why do you torment yourself so? He could not afford the luxury of succumbing to such imagery when there were other matters of much greater importance that demanded attention. He stood up with a heavy sigh and accepted his robe from his valet. Not one hour later Darcy rang the bell in Gracechurch Street and was led into the study while the servant went to fetch Mr. Gardiner. He did not look forward to relaying all of the specifics, as the details were most disagreeable. But he knew Elizabeth's uncle to be a sensible man and felt certain that he would appreciate the truth regarding his niece. Mr. Gardiner entered the study and the gentlemen greeted each other with courtesy. Darcy then wasted no time coming directly to the point. "Sir, I have come to inform you that I have discovered the location of your niece. I have seen her and spoken to her today, and to Wickham as well." His host's face showed both relief and apprehension at these words. "As it is at this moment, they are not married. However, I feel that this entire matter may be settled tomorrow in a manner that will suit everyone involved."
At this statement, Mr. Gardiner opted for large brandies for them both and they lost track of the time as they sat in deep conversation. Elizabeth was well aware that Mr. Darcy had called and was talking with her uncle. She had changed to a new dress that she was very fond of; now she was in the midst of having the maid rearrange her hair. She handed the girl a dark green ribbon to lace through it. Her aunt came in and looked at Elizabeth's reflection in the mirror. "Lizzy, did you know that Mr. Darcy has come?" Mrs. Gardiner was certain this fact had not gone unnoticed by her niece, for she felt confident that her current preparations were for his benefit. "Yes, aunt. He has been speaking with my uncle for quite a long while, do you not agree?" Elizabeth asked. "Indeed he has. I cannot help but think he has brought news about Lydia. Hurry and finish; we will wait in the sitting room and speak to them when they are through." Her aunt paused before leaving and adjusted the ribbon slightly. Then she smiled and said with some thoughtfulness, "You look especially nice today, my dear." As planned, they waited in the sitting room, and were presently rewarded by hearing the door to the study open and the sound of the gentlemen's footsteps as they approached. Darcy entered the room first; on seeing Elizabeth seated with her aunt, he immediately greeted them with a deep bow. He moved to seat himself in the chair closest to her, keeping his eyes fully upon her person. Mr. Gardiner related the news of Lydia, in terms more general than specific, and Darcy's attention was distracted from Elizabeth when he was called upon to answer several questions pertaining to the situation. He did so with some reluctance, as he felt this awkward topic was best left to be discussed privately amongst the family. Mrs. Gardiner began to believe they could benefit from a change of conversation; at the same time, this would afford her niece the opportunity to speak with the gentleman about more suitable and pleasant topics. She was of a mind to help advance whatever progress might be made between them this evening.
Darcy knew not the exact direction their conversation took, for when he allowed himself the luxury of gazing upon Elizabeth again, her loveliness eclipsed all other thoughts that competed for his attention. He could not recall being asked to stay for dinner or how he had responded. However, he must have accepted, for he found himself most advantageously seated across from her in the dining room. Here, he was able to enjoy long, uninterrupted views, which he committed to memory. He completely missed the look that passed from husband to wife as the apparent attraction their guest had for their niece was laid out right before them. He was prepared to linger after the meal was finished, and Mr. Gardiner suggested they dispense with formalities and join the women back in the sitting room. No sooner had they settled in with their coffee than Mrs. Gardiner was called to see to some specifics about the children. She astutely judged the mood between the young people and requested assistance from her husband. This is a most welcome development. Darcy was considering what he might say to take advantage of it when Elizabeth spoke.
"Mr. Darcy, do you really believe that all can be resolved for my sister? Do you expect it will happen as soon as tomorrow?" She looked at him with an expression of complete trust and hope that his help would be able to set everything right. He did not want to reveal anything that would hurt Elizabeth. She could not, nor would I allow her to have a full understanding of her sister's present situation. He was more than usually guarded in his response. "I do believe so, Miss Bennet. I would like to see her here with you by tomorrow evening." Elizabeth said nothing in reply, but when he looked closely he saw she had grown quite solemn. He thought it best to change the subject. "My sister truly enjoyed your visit yesterday. I dare say she would be pleased to spend some time with you again, Miss Bennet. And I would welcome it as well. Georgiana could well do with the companionship of intelligent and suitable young ladies."
Elizabeth could not hold back her smile; in light of the ill-considered actions of her sister, this was indeed a most gracious compliment. "You are very generous, Mr. Darcy. I thank you. I would enjoy furthering our association. " She gave him a smile filled with gratitude.
Darcy had a curiosity that he wished to satisfy, but he could not think how to go about introducing the topic. He rose from his seat and paced the floor with great deliberation. Finally he sat down beside her, fixed his eyes on hers and spoke in the same manner as she remembered he had done in private conversation the day before. His bearing spoke of the same self-assurance that had resulted from their informality. "Why did you not accompany your aunt and uncle on their visit to Pemberley?" He searched her face earnestly, as if he might divine the answer from it.
Elizabeth hesitated, not knowing how to respond. This question is most unexpected. She felt herself begin to colour.
"Miss Bennet, you seem to be blushing. I hope my directness has not offended you." "Oh no," she responded hastily, and without thinking touched his arm as if to set him at ease. She looked down with amazement at her hand as it rested against the fine fabric of his jacket, then stole a look up to find him watching her. If I didn't know better I'd think he was trying to provoke me. She answered him as she moved her hand away. "I wanted to avoid creating a disagreeable situation." His face clouded and he moved closer. Once again Elizabeth felt the intense power of his scrutiny. She feared that, were she to let it, it could overtake her quite easily. "And in what way would your presence there be disagreeable?"
It was a most inopportune moment for her to find her eyes roaming his neck. It has all the appearance of being very attractive. But his cravat is in the way... She tried to clear this thought away, with limited success. Her thoughts succeeded in further unraveling her composure. "Please, sir!" she said softly, "do not jest with me." She lowered her voice. "Surely you understand what I mean." Her face was close to his again, and she could not help but wonder how his lips would feel upon hers. No doubt quite pleasing, but I would imagine quite determined in their purpose...
Darcy was looking at her now in a way that left Elizabeth feeling a distinct tightness in her chest. I am unsure where his thoughts might be taking him. He continued to look upon her with intensity. "Miss Bennet, I assure you that at whatever time you choose to make a visit to Pemberley, I would not only welcome you..."
The door to the parlor swung open as Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner returned. It was a most unfortunate time to interrupt them. Elizabeth and Darcy did a poor job of trying to appear as if nothing out of the ordinary had been transpiring between them, but as they themselves could not be certain, it was impossible to convince anyone else. Only a few minutes more of conversation passed before Mr. Darcy bid them goodnight.
Chapter Nine
Long after their niece Elizabeth had gone upstairs to bed, Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner remained awake. He was a man who preferred not to keep secrets from his wife, and there was no detail of Lydia's circumstances that he did not share with her. Mrs. Gardiner found she was so disgusted and appalled with her youngest niece that she would be hard pressed to be polite once they brought her home. Uncaring, selfish girl! She held Mr. Wickham in even lower regard, if that were possible; the knowledge that he had never intended to marry Lydia was
too reprehensible to imagine. Vile scoundrel! They could now only pity Lydia the husband she must have.
There was already an agreement to be honoured; certain particulars about the arrangements must be kept confidential at Darcy's request, although the Gardiners found his insistence on taking full responsibility much more than was required. They thought it best to wait as Darcy had suggested until they were certain that everything had been secured, then send an express to Mr. Bennet for his approval. It had required a good deal of negotiation for Darcy to finally reach an understanding with Wickham. The reluctant bridegroom had been quite firm in his requirements and, while he did not receive anything near the sum he demanded, Darcy's funds were depleted sufficiently by the time the men shook on it. He had needed more patience than he thought he owned to deal with Lydia, who understood only that she would be married in a fortnight and would be forced to stay with her relations until then. She was lost as to the reason that Mr. Darcy had to be involved at all.
As dusk came and a light drizzle began, Darcy's carriage stopped in front of the house on Gracechurch Street. The driver retrieved Lydia's trunk as Darcy escorted her up to the door. When she reached to open it and enter unannounced, he blocked her arm, gave her a look of disapproval, and rang the bell. They were shown into the foyer properly; Mrs. Gardiner came forward to greet Lydia, but without the same warmth that she would have shown her in the past. Out of the corner of his eye, Darcy saw Elizabeth standing at the top of the stairs. She seemed to communicate her appreciation to him with a look of gratitude. As she moved closer it was evident that her tears threatened to spill over, but she regained her composure and greeted her sister with a warm embrace.
"Oh, Lydia. We have all been so worried about you. It is such a relief to finally have you here," Elizabeth spoke with some emotion. "Lizzy! It is good to see you too," Lydia responded. She looked back and forth between her aunt and her sister, then let a long pout spread across her face. "Well," she said at last, "I am waiting!" "Waiting, Lydia?" Elizabeth began.
"For what?" Mrs. Gardiner finished. "For your congratulations, of course!" She looked at the bewildered women and continued, "On my engagement. I cannot believe that you would be so thoughtless!"
They looked at her with utter disbelief. Mrs. Gardiner rescued a most uncomfortable moment by turning to Darcy and thanking him most sincerely for his help in assisting her niece home. Elizabeth joined her in expressing her thanks, then both women turned to look at Lydia with the same expectation. Not only did she refuse to take their hint, but she plopped into a chair most ungraciously and announced, "Lord, I am so hungry! When will we eat, Aunt?"
They held their verbal assault upon her until after dinner that night. The burden that the family had endured as a result of her actions was repeated many times by both her aunt and her sister. Although Lydia stayed in the room and seemed to hear their words with little comment, they believed that in fact she had hardly listened to them at all. Mr. Gardiner employed himself that evening in putting down the particulars of the arrangements that had been entered into on his behalf, then had a servant undertake to arrange its express delivery to Mr. Bennet. Upon receipt of this express the next day Mr. Bennet read it through twice before he went out into the garden in search of solitary reflection. Here he lingered for a good long while, until by chance he saw Jane approaching. He was secretly relieved to have her company, for he had decided he ought to share the letter with her. She read it aloud at his request, and they discussed its contents and the action it required.
When at last he fell silent, Jane began, "Father, we have been searching for you." She then looked about the garden. " 'We', my dear? Who else is here?" Mr. Bennet inquired, with a gesture that indicated that the garden was otherwise empty. She smiled and looked away for a moment. "Father," she began again, "Mr. Bingley would like to speak with you. I thought it would be best for me to speak to you myself beforehand. So much has happened that I did not know how you might react to another piece of unexpected news." Mr. Bennet paused and looked at his oldest daughter with genuine parental love. He could fairly guess where this was leading, and only felt sorry that she had not been able to enjoy her happiness as fully as she deserved because of Lydia's misbehaviour. He resolved not to let her moment be ruined.
"Your Mr. Bingley wishes to speak with me, does he? I hope he has not been displeased with the dinners he has been taking here these last few days. No? That is not it? Then perhaps he wishes to discuss his plans for another ball at Netherfield? No, I suppose that is not it either, is it?" "No, Father, it is not, " Jane answered shyly. "Well, Jane, wherever your Mr. Bingley is hiding, go and fetch him so that I may hear what he has to say."
Jane quickly disappeared, to be replaced a moment later by Bingley. The two gentlemen had a most productive discussion, then shook hands and began walking together towards the house. Jane watched them through an upstairs window. I never believed that this would happen. She went downstairs to meet them with the greatest joy, finally able to let the news of their engagement be made known to all. Although Lydia had not had much else to say, she had expressed her immediate desire to shop for her impending wedding to both her sister and aunt. She was promptly and firmly informed that she would have to wait to see what monetary arrangements her father would undertake for the purpose. Silence and head-shaking were all that met her assurances that her father must buy her whatever she required.
Mr. Wickham was to call upon Lydia late this afternoon, and most of the household expected it to be an uncomfortable affair. Mrs. Gardiner had no choice but to be away on a previous engagement, and thus Elizabeth would be the first of their family to speak to him since the disastrous events at Brighton. For her part, she could not imagine how she ought to act towards him, and said as much to her aunt, who wisely advised her to adopt an attitude of reserved courtesy. The two women agreed to allow him no unsupervised time with Lydia.
When Wickham finally did call, he showed no discomfort or embarrassment at all. He displayed every degree of charm and courtesy to both Lydia and Elizabeth, and when he suggested a walk to the park, he wisely included Elizabeth before she could raise any objection. As their party took the long way around to reach the park, Darcy arrived again at Gracechurch Street, this time for a different purpose. He had come this afternoon to call on Elizabeth, and he had spent a good portion of the day reconfirming to himself his desire to pursue her regard and win her love. The servant who answered the door knew him now and welcomed him inside; as Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner were both away from home, he announced that he would inform Miss Bennet of
his arrival.
Darcy was then escorted to the study and seated himself to wait, assuming Elizabeth would be receiving him momentarily. He was unaware that no one was currently at home. The servant was unaware that Miss Bennet had gone for a walk, and he began searching the house for her. Elizabeth was relieved to see the Gardiner house just up ahead; their walk had been too long, even without Lydia's gushing over Mr. Wickham through the entire exercise. She went up the steps first and opened the door. The three entered and gathered in the foyer; Elizabeth anticipated that Wickham would say his goodbyes, so she removed her bonnet and gloves while she stood waiting beside her sister. When he heard the sounds of people entering the house Darcy rose, expecting to be received at last; instead, he was made privy to a most offensive exchange.
First he recognized Wickham's unctuous voice. "Lydia, my dear, before I go let me correct my negligence. I have not yet told you how lovely you look today." Elizabeth saw him smirk at her sister in a way that was hardly appropriate. "That dress is most becoming, and it does benefit to your figure, if it were possible to improve upon it." His familiarity of manner verged on offensiveness. "Dearest, you know well all that is concealed beneath this dress. I believe you only mean to tease me!" How appalling. Darcy believed Lydia actually thought Wickham's crude comment to be a compliment. Surely Elizabeth does not! He heard her say quite clearly, "Lydia, watch yourself! That is most improper." "Oh, Lizzy, you're such a prude! And you cannot tell me what to do in any case. I am to be married, and then I will rank above you. Besides, my darling husband and I have no secrets." Darcy could not know that he was fortunate to have missed the smile Lydia coyly shot at Wickham. "My Lord, Lydia! Must I remind you that Mr. Wickham is not your husband? And the entire nature of this conversation is most unsuitable." "Oh, Lizzy! You must be jealous, for you have only had a proposal of marriage from Mr. Collins! Do not fret, dear sister, I will teach you how to catch a handsome husband!" Lydia turned Wickham, linked her arm in his and moved to the door. "Come dearest, let us say goodbye."
Darcy could scarcely believe what he was hearing; had another word passed, he would have been out in the foyer to give his opinion of it all, consequences be damned. But there was no more conversation. Elizabeth turned to hide her shame and saw that the study door was slightly open, although the room had not yet been lit. She escaped with a sigh of dismay, hoping the dim room would act as sufficient shelter. I simply want to hide away. She did not believe that her sister had spoken the words she had just heard. I cannot imagine what would possess her to behave in such a disreputable manner. She was equally shocked by Mr. Wickham's forwardness. It is unforgivable. "Dear God, I don't believe it," she said to herself. "Why, Lydia, why? What have you become?" She stamped her foot in frustration. "I hardly know, but I believe the two of you deserve each other. Oh! Were I able to force some sense into you I would..." Elizabeth broke down and began to cry, as much from humiliation for herself as in grief over her sister.
Darcy could see her clearly in the dimness; she stood facing a wall lined from floor to ceiling in bookshelves. She began to shake uncontrollably, and suddenly he could endure it no longer. I cannot stand back. I must...
Once he decided to make his presence known he moved towards her with some haste, and said simply, "Elizabeth." He stood close behind her; she did not turn, but her back stiffened. As he suspected, she had not known that anyone else was present. She was unable to stop her sobbing, but she quieted herself somewhat. "Please, Elizabeth," he whispered, so softly that she knew he was closer to her than might be prudent. She felt the touch of his hands, first caressing the back of her neck and then moving to her shoulders and following their curves down to her arms. She opened her mouth in an attempt to breathe, for suddenly she felt light-headed. "Do not turn around, Elizabeth. If you have disapproval in your eyes, I could not bear to see it," he murmured into her silky dark hair. Darcy brought his face so close that she felt his warm breath upon her cheek, her ear, and her neck. She was still shaking, but he could not know that it was now because she sensed his closeness and its heat inflamed her. He moved closer still, and she could feel his chest pressed lightly against her back. His hands moved slowly down her arms and finally grasped hers tightly. As their fingers entwined, she felt a delicious surge of pleasure.
Without thinking, Elizabeth leaned into him and allowed him to support her body. At the same time, she crossed her arms in front of her, which brought his arms up to surround her. Darcy rested his head lightly against hers and kissed a curl above her ear. She heard him say quietly, "Calm yourself. You must not allow this to overwhelm you. I am here for you."
With that he tightened his arms around her, pulling her even closer into his protective embrace. He held her that way for some minutes, gently brushing his lips next to her ear and scattering light kisses all about her neck and cheek. She did not realize she had inclined her head back against his shoulder, which allowed him this pleasure with greater ease. Elizabeth said not a word, but stood with her eyes closed and gave herself up to his nurturing. She did not trust herself to speak until he implored her gently, "Tell me that I have found a way to ease your distress."
Elizabeth barely turned her head and whispered against his mouth, "You have, Mr. Darcy." It only took the slightest of movements to bring their lips together. It was unclear who had taken the initiative, but the result was a tentative kiss, carefully restrained against the eagerness they both felt. They parted quickly and might have continued on had she not
become worried about their detection. He did hear her say softly, "Mr. Darcy, I must go now," as she reluctantly pulled herself away from the security of his arms. She turned and looked at him with an expression that caused his heart to jump, then lifted his hand to her face and
guided it to caress her with great tenderness. He took the chance to brush away a final tear that trailed down her cheek before she walked away.
For his part, Darcy would have gladly stayed as they were forever. I would have welcomed an intrusion. He knew this was a desperate position. At least we would have reached some certainty! As it stood, there was still no agreement between them at all. Then the old doubts grasped him yet again, and with them came another thought that was more logical. This might be only another impulse on her part. Was she reacting to the moment? He feared then that he might
have done the unthinkable. Did I take advantage of her in her weakness?
As he tried to make sense of all that had just happened, the unexpected occurred. He heard Elizabeth returning to the room, and was completely confused as to her intention.
"Why, Mr. Darcy! Good heavens! What are you doing in here? And in the dark!" She called loudly for the servants to light the room and make their guest comfortable, then offered him refreshment. "I was not aware that you had called. Have you come to see my uncle? I believe he is still out," she said somewhat archly. "Thank you, Miss Bennet. I actually came to see you," he answered, with a hint of amusement in his own voice. "Then sir, you have achieved your purpose, have you not?" She smiled at him, this time most alluringly, letting him know clearly that their previous interlude was indeed foremost in her thoughts.
Chapter Ten
They had only to wait a few minutes longer before the servants were finished with their duties in the study. Elizabeth sat on a sofa and watched their progress. Mr. Darcy sat on another sofa and watched her, quite closely. He noted that she began to fidget, tapping a single finger; it alerted him to the fact that she seemed to be experiencing some nervousness. He had not believed her to be so unaffected as she portrayed when she first re-entered the room.
When the servants left and they were at last alone again, each turned at once to look at the other. They were sharing at least some of the same thoughts, and it was impossible to avoid the current of emotion traveling between them now. It was no easy matter to extinguish the passion they had both allowed to burst forth only minutes ago. Each attempted to commence a conversation but abandoned the effort before it began. Still their eyes rested upon each other and savoured this unexpected privacy, not knowing if the other felt the same sentiments. They gave up any attempt to speak and sat in silence, each recalling how it had felt to be in the other's arms. Perhaps if neither one spoke the silence would preserve forever their unique
moment of harmony, even if it never occurred again.
From Mr. Darcy's point of view this was, of course, totally unacceptable. I must have this woman. He was now more determined than ever to proceed, somehow, on a course to achieve such a result. He rose from his seat. "Miss Bennet - Elizabeth, please allow me to get you some wine. I believe you could benefit from it." He did not wait for her reply, but poured a full glass and handed it to her. She is quite flushed, even now. As she sipped it, he moved back toward the bookshelves, taking up the same spot that would forever be etched in his memory.
"Are you well? Will you not speak to me?" "Yes Mr. Darcy, I am well," she said, still openly appraising him. Her gaze held not even a hint of demureness; the look she cast upon him was that of a woman who did not regret the degree of intimacy they had unintentionally shared. He found this more than a little provocative, and although he was not certain that she understood this herself, he had no doubts as to its effect upon him. "I must thank you for not abandoning me in the dark," he ventured. "That would have been quite unforgivable, sir." He continued, "I believe, Elizabeth, that our association is now somewhat more complicated. It must be discussed. We cannot leave it as it stands." His freedom of address did not escape her notice. "I agree with you, sir," she said evenly. With an edge of uncontrolled emotion in her voice, she confessed, "It is all so unexpected. I cannot think where to begin."
His face broke into a rather attractive smile as he suggested, "Perhaps you might start by calling me by my given name?" "I am not sure that would be proper, sir," she mused as she admired his dimples.
"Are you not?" he replied, with a note of feigned hurt in his voice, and raised a hand to his chest as though he were in pain. "It is of no concern to anyone but you and myself. I find it completely proper, and it would please me greatly." His eyes sparkled with amusement. "It need be only when we are alone." "Oh, and do you intend that to happen some regularity?" Elizabeth gamely teased him back, but her resistance melted under his admiring gaze and she heard herself replying, "Very well, if you would like."
A smile played upon her lips. He can be so very agreeable. He had an unmistakable boyish charm that, when in evidence, was irresistible. And the consequence of his devastatingly good looks was unavoidable. He moved to sit beside her, and again raised the topic that pursued their thoughts and made their pulses race.
"Nevertheless, I am concerned that I may have forced myself upon you in an unwelcome manner. I would never wish for that, Elizabeth." He watched her closely in an effort to detect her thoughts. "You must not allow yourself to think that." She fixed his eyes in hers and said, "I could have stopped you, had I wished to, but it never entered into my mind to attempt it. And your description is flawed. There was no force in your actions; they were kinder and more caring than I have ever experienced." She looked down with a trace of embarrassment.
"Elizabeth," he whispered. "Look at me." He stared deeply into her eyes, took her hand and raised it to his lips, and very properly placed the chastest of kisses upon it. "I respect and admire you greatly, Elizabeth. My intentions are nothing but honourable." Then he graced her with another unabashed smile. "Not without a great deal of feeling, however!" He continued to hold onto her hand. Elizabeth was again beginning to lose control of her ability to think
clearly, but before she could reply a servant entered. "Excuse me, ma'am, a note has arrived for you." She accepted it and, after reading it, looked at Darcy keenly.
The servant was waiting for her direction. "What of my nieces and nephews? They have eaten?" she inquired. "Yes, and your sister with them," Elizabeth heard his reply. Of course
Lydia would wait for no one when hunger overcame her. "They are upstairs now with their maid preparing for bed. I believe your sister has retired." No doubt to avoid speaking with me.
"Mr. Darcy, it appears that I have been abandoned this evening. My aunt and uncle have accepted an unexpected invitation to spend the evening with friends. I will dine alone unless you consent to take pity on me."
Darcy accepted the invitation with alacrity, and it was decided they would be served informally in the room where they now sat. Elizabeth gave some instructions to the servant, excused herself to put the children to bed, and left Darcy alone to contemplate the amazing
events of the last hour. He now found himself in the most astonishing of situations. He had
merely hoped to pass some time conversing with Elizabeth and display his attentions to the criticisms she had made at Hunsford. To think that he had proceeded to act so boldly and yet still held her good esteem was more than he could have imagined. He wore the satisfied
look of a gentleman who had just enjoyed a most delightful intimate encounter with a desirable woman. The most desirable of women. And he ventured to believe that Elizabeth had enjoyed their interlude as much as he had.
She did not slap me. She placed my arms around her. She kissed me back. That was hardly a one-sided response. I have now been invited to a private supper with her. He could only wish fervently that their affairs would continue along this favourable path. She found him in great good humour when she returned. He offered her another glass of wine, which she declined, before taking one himself. Trays of meats, cheeses and breads and also of salads had been placed on a side table, and they both partook of an assortment of the selections. It was enough for a dozen people; the cook had been overzealous in her preparations. Elizabeth did not allow the conversation to languish too long.
"I dare say the matter from which all this began has been somewhat overshadowed." "Indeed, Elizabeth," Mr. Darcy agreed. She found the sound of her name upon his lips more than agreeable; when he said it, it sounded like the most beautiful name in the world. "You heard, then, all that was said in the foyer?" "I did," he replied, and wondered if discussing it would upset her. "But one more word and I would have intervened." Elizabeth remained at least outwardly collected in her emotions. "It is quite distressing. My aunt and I have spoken with Lydia, and, if I may be honest, we have been less than gentle in our remarks. She listens, but it has no effect. Her behaviour remains unaltered, and we can think of nothing else to say to reprove her." "I can well imagine, Elizabeth. I had to speak to your sister at great length to persuade her to return here." He hesitated again, for he feared that what he wished to say might be inappropriate; she urged him silently to continue. "You must not dwell on your part in this. Your efforts have been nothing but admirable. Do what you can, and then you must let it go. There will always be some whose character cannot be improved, and what they make of their lives will be of their own consequence."
She sighed deeply; she knew his counsel was sound, even wise. The more time Elizabeth spent with him, the more evident his excellent qualities became. To think of all that is within this man that I failed to see. She noticed a smile begin to spread over his face again; as she
watched, it increased to a fairly evident grin. His thoughts had turned to a subject more agreeable than her sister. "Might I ask what amuses you so?" "Pray, I think it is best I do not say," he baited her. "Oh please, sir, I would like to know what has so brightened your
face."
He passed the back of his hand across his mouth in an effort to disguise his increasing delight. He was not usually so carefree with his remarks, but tonight was special. "I was considering what your reaction must have been at the moment you received your offer of
marriage from Mr. Collins!" He had a way of rendering her incapable of speech, and he had just
done it again. Her mouth flew open, and she doubted she had heard him correctly. This gave him even more reason to laugh.
"You see," he continued with a chuckle, "I did think it best kept to myself." Finally she said, "I assure you, his proposal was quite seriously made." She gave him a somewhat perplexed look, and he laughed aloud now without attempting to hide it. She sat calmly and observed him,
feeling more than a little like laughing herself. At last he recovered some measure of control and managed to say, "I am sure that it was. I apologise if I have offended you by mentioning
it!" He nearly lost his composure again, and finally said, "There is just something about it...and yet, if I may be so bold, never would there have been a more mismatched couple! I believe he is better served by his next choice; the time I spent in their company at Rosings and Hunsford confirmed that."
Suddenly it became obvious that they were again thinking the same thing, of his own offer to her at Hunsford and all that had passed between them that day. Darcy's expression sobered quickly. Elizabeth looked at him with concern. "Oh no!" The colour drained from her face and she rose from her seat. "Please, please let me speak." But she could do no more than stare at him. "May I impose upon you to pour me another glass of wine?"
He refilled her glass, and before she spoke she took more than one fortifying sip. "I have had much time to ponder the remarks I made. They must have caused you great pain, and I wish I had never said them. I should not have spoken to you as harshly as I did. You must believe me when I tell you I am heartily sorry for it." Elizabeth's distress was clearly written on her face.
Somewhat more collected but with no less emotion, she said, "I have had many sleepless hours as a result of my behaviour that day. It is most important to me that you accept my apology." She waited for him to respond.
He rose to his feet. "I cannot accept what is not necessary," he began, but when he saw her face fall, he corrected his course. "I will most certainly accept your apology, Elizabeth." He took the glass from her and placed it on the table, then enclosed both of her hands, much
smaller than his own, within his. They found themselves quite close together once more. It was not the most proper situation for a man and a woman to find themselves in, unless the said couple had an understanding. "If you do not mind, I would prefer not to discuss that day now."
Darcy was a tall man, and she felt all the power of his height as he stood beside her. It was one more thing that reminded Elizabeth of the way he stirred her emotions. "Let us leave that for another time."
The mood had changed again, quite suddenly. The intensity that Elizabeth felt in his touch returned, rekindling all that it had already awakened in her. The heady rush of desire began to overwhelm her again. She was vaguely aware that he had gently pulled her hands around him to encircle his body. He then let them go and brought his own hand up to her face, his touch so light that she could scarcely feel it as he traced the back of his fingers around her chin and down her neck. His other hand found her waist and pulled her firmly towards him. He looked upon her now with bold desire that fired Elizabeth to her core.
He slipped his hand behind her neck and buried his fingers in her hair, giving her a look of tremendous longing that she returned before he placed the most amorous of kisses upon her lips. This was nothing like their earlier attempt. Thi